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I hate that when I try to be the good guy I get fucked regardless. Maybe I should just stop trying. Maybe I just need to find people who will give as much as they take. I really wish I had a friend like that. I feel fucking lonely here.

Lazy Sunday

Today I woke up and layed in bed for hella days watching TV. I got up about an hour later and took a shower. Then I did some math HW. Then this girl Amy came over and told me she was decorating her house with her momma and this slut Lauren, so I invited myself along on the journey. We went to Home Depot to find a Christmas tree. For some reason we did this in the pouring rain. Lauren wore a sombrero. We ventured out of the car and towards the trees and instantly spotted the perfect one, Georgia. Lauren, Amy, and I dragged Georgia to some guys who basically cut down the trunk of the tree, put it in a net, threw it on the car, and told us to tie it up. We somehow managed to do a friggin baller job and the tree stayed atop the rack of the car the whole ride home. Then Carla remembered that she never paid for the tree. We kept going. We got back to Amy's and snuggled all up in blankets and warm clothes and what not to watch local dating on On Demand. We found some potential singles who had interesting hobbies like making earrings and jogging. After we were satisfied, we watched Drake and Josh. Then we reminisced about stealing a Christmas tree. We're probably going to Hell. Now I am home. What a day :)

Wow

Honestly, today has been one of the most stressful days of my life.

About Last Night...

Last night was interesting to say the least. Of course, I'm always the one who drinks too much within the first hour and get wasted before everyone and make a total idiot of myself. I had my iPod out playing in the open and dancing around with people and shit. I only really remember chunks of the night, but after that I remember running into Trevor's room and trying a whip it with Amy which was fucking AMAZING. Amy and I were cracking up and hella tripping for a minute or so and then immediately wanted to do it again. Trevor wouldn't let us so we ran out and I think I went into the house. Around this time Tim came and as I was walking into the garage, I fell straight on my neck on the steps and I just remember laying there laughing. Then Amy took me back to Trevor's room and we did another whip it, but this time it made me feel really sick. I think during this time I ran around greeting people and shit but then somehow ended up in Amy's room puking a little bit and falling asleep on her bed. I woke up and told Tim to go get my iPod, but turns out it was missing so I freaked the FUCK out. I started running around accusing everyone of taking it. By that point, helllllla people had showed up and I was completely billigerent and angry. I blamed Amy for it for some reason and chased her around the house yelling at her until I went back into her room and cried for a while. Finally, I came back out and chilled with people and played with Jimmy's pants and hid things in his pockets and stole his hat and blahblahblah. Also, Barack Obama AND John Mccain were there and it was a good ol time. That's pretty much all I remember.... I'm assuming i looked like a total raging bitch because of how I overreacted about tons of stuff that doesn't even matter. I honestly do not think I can go to a party and act normal... But ya know, I kind of like it that way.

Now I'm cleaning the house and waiting for Tim to come over and den we're going to the Sharks game. YeEeEeEeEeE I'm weird. Bye!!

PS; Under my ear down to the top right part of my spine hurts like a beez >:'( Wtf stairs.

Wutz new with Caitlin?!

Currently, I am writing this at 7:41 p.m. on a cold, foggy December 1st evening. Which means......................... IT IS FINALLY DECEMBER! I am soooo so SOOOOOOOOO absolutely, positively stoked. December is definitely one of my favorite times of the year with all of the Christmas joy and holiday spirit and what not in the air. Although break is in 3 weeks, that sounds way too far away and in the meantime I have buttloads of homework and papers to write. I almost don't even care though since I'm already getting accepted by colleges (or maybe just SF State.....) so I know it's going to be worth it... At some point anyways.

As for Thanksgiving break, it was pretty fun considering the circumstances. My best friend was in Louisiana for basically all of it and my boyfriend had things going on so I only saw him for about half of it. It was fun hanging out with everyone else though like old times. Last Friday night was pretty insane and I am proud to say that I, Caitlin Danielson, for once, was the sole survivor of the night. Well, for the most part. Regardless, it was a good/entertaining way to end the break. Sadly, by Saturday I got sick and it's staying strong to this day :'(.

Ahhh this week is sounding pretty lame since I have Venture tomorrow and possibly Thursday. Oh and apparently Wednesday I have math tutoring? Which isn't even necessary at all but whatever. Maybe all of those things will make the week go by faster. All I know is that I'm watchin some Gossip Girl in 12 minutes and then passing out in my warm, cozy bed of happiness. Mmmmmmmm :)

Goodnight luvaz & friendz

Ranting

What I really don't understand is how judgmental people can be. ESPECIALLY, the ones who are supposedly so religious and have their beliefs and morals completely glued into their minds, so much that they forget about everyone else's. Honestly, they make me feel like a bad person for not necessarily believing in the same things they do or to the same extremes. They feel the need to force their beliefs onto others in order to try and "open their eyes", when really they're just disrespecting others' views. I'm sorry I try to experience life to its fullest, rather than build up walls to try to isolate myself from it. You are in no way saving yourself from anything, you are just temporarily hiding from it. Who are you to say what makes a person good or not? It seems like everyone is trying to preach some kind of extreme views on their religion because they are trying to better the world. If you really want to better the world, then just simply live your life the way you want to by your own rules and morals. People will respect you for it and maybe even try to better themselves because of it. There is absolutely no need to go around looking down on others for the way they live their lives. It is none of your business to determine if what makes them happy is wrong or not, with the exception of something that could potentially endanger their life. You should focus on bettering yourself and trying to set an example for others to follow. I'm not saying that if you don't go to parties or go out all the time that you are not really experiencing life. Just do what makes you happy, despite what others may say. It's your life and only God may judge you.

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I just found out that Bartels and Amy have these since Livejournal totally isn't cool anymore. Soooo here I am! :)