bad day

If my heart is made out of gold than why does it feel like I’m here all alone
And you take me for granted
You take me for reasons known only by you

I’m hollowed out, can’t you see?
You’ve ripped out my soul right from under me
Have little to show for anything
It’s everything you hoped for

You take me for granted
You take me for reasons known only by you

I am so damn bored

all of the time. I'm beginning to hate living here.

I've noticed

that no one uses this anymore. Booooooooooooooooooring =/

So

this is what it feels like. Well since that part of my life is over, time to bring in the new. I just never imagined it would hurt so much. I'm pretty embarrassed to be honest. It's not ok, but I'll get through it and move on with my life.

Happiness

Happiness is just outside my window
Would it crash blowing 80-miles an hour?
Or is happiness a little more like knocking
On your door, and you just let it in?

Happiness feels a lot like sorrow
Let it be, you can’t make it come or go
But you are gone- not for good, but for now
Gone for now feels a lot like gone for good

Happiness is a firecracker sitting on my headboard
Happiness was never mine to hold
Careful child, light the fuse and get away
‘Cause happiness throws a shower of sparks

Happiness damn near destroys you
Breaks your faith to pieces on the floor
So you tell yourself, that’s probably enough for now
Happiness has a violent roar

Happiness is like the old man told me
Look for it, but you’ll never find it all
But let it go, live your life and leave it
Then one day, wake up and she’ll be home

I Wonder How

I let myself get to this point. How I let myself hangout with people who only brought me down. Wow. What a fucking reality check. I think I have a feeling of whose reaaaallly a good friend or not. I'm definitely not going to be the one handing out third and fourth chances. Too bad I don't care anymore! I figure once I move out, I wont have to see or talk to any of them anymore. Oh well! :D

Random Thought

Everyone needs to stop feeling sorry for themselves... Myself included. Life is an amazing thing, so stop dwelling on what's wrong and focus on what you're doing right so far. Eventually it's gonna work out, but by feeling hopeless you're not gonna get anywhere. Being positive takes you places. Just remember a lot of people have it so much worse than you. If they can prosper in a world like this, so can you.

Next week is my last week of having a social life. Helloooo 4 months of lacrosse :) Haha.

I JUST LOVE FINALS WEEK! :D
.......Nawt.

Goodnight! :)